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Name: Melvin Andrew A.
Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 1/6/1983
Gender: Male
Interests: Seeing how life unfolds.
Expertise: Belly rolling, finding scripture, scaling photos to the right size, transposing chords, making sandwiches, kissing my GF, playing rhythm guitar for worship, singing, and haunting people's dreams.
Occupation: Teller
Industry: Corporate Whore
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  Binoypogiboyz
Member Since:
4/14/2004
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| I've tainted everything. Things that were pure. Things that was sincere. With no excuses, I am at fault. Being away from you, Extracted from your voice, Kills me; destroys me I don't know if it's just part of the withdrawal What if things will be better? What if I don't want it to better? I embrace this pain, because it's the nearest thing of being with you I am mad at myself for being stupid Not realizing what I had Not realizing the beauty of you You are the only thing real in my life I've shattered everything that was real to you I, painfully, love you I don't hate it I just hate me I don't hate you ... . goodnight and I hope you sleep with a nice dream smell something nice .... You are not alone; I am. | | |
| Things has been on overload overdrive as the year comes to an end. It's like driving with a full tank and once you are near towards the empty sign, things just seems to flicker away in this mess that we are in. Life is messy. We try to clean things up or organize things, but it is simply just redirecting garbage. That is what's been happening to me. One shit happens, life takes a load on me. I feel like a midget running out of ammos to kill all the fucking bastards who is pretending something that they are not. Primarily, I am speaking about myself. I am that bastard. Most likely I always wanted to punch myself on the face, but I just wanted to kiss you.
I have been somewhat dumbfounded with all these things happening. God is not stopping calling me with many things. I was in facilitator's training and it has been crazy.
What has been stuck in my head is the verse in 1 Corinthians 3:16-17
" Do you not know that you are God's temple and that God's Spirit dwells in you? If any one destroys God's temple, God will destroy him. For God's temple is holy, and that temple you are."
I felt like I've wrecked and destroyed some temples out there, including my own. Midgets are attacking me. Maybe some crazy morons. They are out there.
One thing is clear, and many things are not. I need God.
I feel helpless and I need to have faith.
Believing in things that I have to pause.
Looking for the truth.
Another verse touched me too.
Psalm 119:9
"How can a young man keep his way pure? By guarding it according to thy word."
I have to guard myself with the Word of God.
I've been soaking myself.
I really like your Bible.
I went to borders today and I did admire the typesetting of it. Keep on reading lang.
Today's reading was a slap to my face.
Luke 17:1-2
"Temptations to sin * are sure to come; but woe to him by whom they come! It would be better for him if a millstone were hung round his neck and he were cast into the sea, than that he should cause one of these little ones to sin."
I am just waiting for a millstone to be tied around my neck, because I've cause a little one to sin.
I hope I don't go to Hell or that I be destroyed.
I do want to live. I want to love. I struggle, but I am not "woed" by anything.
I am numb and in a very fiery mode.
I hate euphemisms.
Good night and I love you.
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| blind eyes, with real love I cannot see
redeem me by tomorrow's misery
weeping, withering, woeful ways
whispering meadows of a dark place knocking
it haunts me
it eats me up
Even mystery seemed to have more clarity at the moment
But where are you love?
Where is your scent and your touch
I am cold, and wittering.
Thirsty to give.
I was wrong; I was right
I have lost my sense of sight
I hear her whisper my name at night
With bitterness and tears running from her eyes
I feel her pain
Yet nothing that I do will console her
It is not what I do will, but what I don't do
She has to be free
I have to pay the fee
Of taking her for granted
Of not growing up
I listen to the soul's siren
Screaming at my ear!
death to your love!
death to you!
NO!
NO!
NO!
NO!
NO!
NO!
It will never die.
I will never die.
Because I will always live in the love that has happened.
I will die in the love that is forgotten
Or what it seems to be dead, is just really sleeping.
I can still hear the snoring.
Don't be fooled.
Just laugh at my face.
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Ask Dr. Greer • Past Columns
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"Are there any health benefits from swallowing semen?"
My fiancé loves for me to give him oral sex and I have no problem with that (believe me) , but he wants me to swallow his semen. Can it hurt me? Are there any health problems associated with swallowing semen?
The good news is that it's beneficial! Recently studies have shown that regular consumption of semen can actually have some wonderful health benefits. Semen contains at least 13 prostaglandins and high concentrations of hormones that retain potency if taken orally. The quality of the seminal hormones is thought to be superior to even prescription versions. In the study women who regularly consumed their lovers sperm showed such benefits as a reduction in ovarian cancers, lowered depression and many even had acne symptoms lessen or stop entirely. It is thought that the oral consumption of the potent hormones had a balancing effect on woman's hormonal ups and downs caused by their periods and pregnancy or breastfeeding.
The key to the findings is "regular consumption". Only once in blue moon won't have the same effect. Those that indulged once or twice a week received little benefits. The ones who received the results were the ones who ingested semen four to five times a week or more! Now that's dedication. If this seems like a lot of work you need to remember that your partner can assist in producing it. All though preferable, a blow job is not the only way to obtain semen. You might be surprised how fast your man can produce sperm for you all on their own.
Oddly enough only married or monogamous women showed the benefits. Those with multiple partners showed no beneficial effects or even reported detrimental effects. This is thought to be caused by the differences in the hormonal makeup of multiple partners. Also it is suspected that only women would benefit from such a regimen as that the hormonal effect would not be balancing in same sex couples.
Science is only now starting to understand the subtle and powerful effects of hormones on a females body and a lot more research needs to be done. For now just realize it's not harmful and if your willing to put in the "work" of regular oral consumption you may realize real health benefits while pleasing your partner in the process.
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| Painting the colorful moments of our lives together
Every second, every minute of our passion
I am forever lost into your arms
Bombarded with unfortunate and insubordinate dreams
I died: I lost me: I lost us
Screams inside my thoughts
Screaming louder, and louder
The demons that come to claim me
I fight them with a lifeless heart
As I drown to the voices of my own desires
You died: You lost you: I lost us
I lust us
The whispers of love
I try to hear
the whispers of hope
i try to feel
the whispers of our silent conversations
I still hear
I still feel
But it is blurred
With the pain that I caused
Pain painted in blood
Rain reigning in pain
Is a kiss that I cannot plant
Because Truth has been disturbed
Love has been peturbed
By the blood of your pain
Blurred by the canvas of our moments
I still feel
I still hear
the screams of your heart
the stabs of your pain
I cry from within
with an ocean of painful memories
drowning you and I
into a place where tommorow is,
tommorow would, and tommorow could...
I surrender
blurred and navigated
By the thirst of longing for what was,
what is, and what could...
If you would
only if you would
arise from my gifts
and learn from it
If I was your gift...
I would embrace of me being wrong
and to be wronged
I like ocassional venomous emotions yawning overtly very much.
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